Sadly this blog has had to come to an end. What was once a voice of my mind, suddenly doesn't need to be worded so much.
I'm lucky Ive been able to find someone who can read me so well that the words that once flowed don't seem to come out the same way anymore. My mind is flowed into other projects (my photo/story blog) aka http://thesimplemoment.blogspot.com.au
TDOL you were once my salvage to my unspoken thoughts but this is the end. Peace. You will never be forgotten.
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I can not explain to you how happy, drunk and amazed I am now! FLORENCE + THE MACHINE = the best thing I have seen all year and possibly ever! I could talk for hours about it! Her voice, the orchestra she had flown out from London and just the songs in general.
REALLY I HAD THE BEST NIGHT!
We downed a bottle of $55 Chandon which I paid $50 of, but so worth it! It was amazing!
What made it better was your call!!!! I have a 21st on the 9th but I will be doing both! There is no question! I am going to see you before I leave and I don't care if I end up missing it, I love you and I want to be with you, to kiss you, to have you hug me! I have 2 plans for that day.
1 - Fly there and back
2 - Drive down with Matty, and fly back so I can get to the party on time because I know how long the drive takes and even if i'm late at least I won't miss the whole thing.
babe I really wish I could keep talking on and on but hearing your voice and knowing how amazing of a shot you are just makes me so proud of you + I want you to take me to a range and teach me the moment we get more than a few hours together.
Missing you like CRAZY come home soon please! or better yet let me know when I can see you!!!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Today hasn't been a day which I have really done anything interesting nor much to talk about really. I've babysat, I've gone back to sleep, finished the 5th book this MONTH and just chilled out watching criminal minds.
I did however start to plan my europe/contiki trip. I've began chatting with those going on the trip with me from the forums they have, glad that Alana is coming with me and has paid now. I'll always have you close to me though with photo's i'm going to print out and your necklace around my neck, you will always be close to my heart.
Currently reading: The boy in the striped pyjamas by John Boyne
Not a bad book, it's about Germany and the Holocaust. You might actually like it but I can't be sure. The fact it's told (though note currently only on chapter 3) through a 9 year old non Jewish Boy which you might take a dislike to.
PS: Your supernatural book is still safe.
Your mum's mentioned to me to send some stamps down to you, apparently you won't have enough so I'm going to get you some, betting I won't be able to find you any Patriots one. I'll try and get some sports one though for you 60c ones.
Love you babe
xxx
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My body aches all over, everywhere I try to kneed out the pain, I just keep finding another section of my body that's suffering. I didn't complain about the pain though, I liked playing tennis last night so it's part of getting back into it. Who knew it used so many muscles. Jess and I are thinking about making it a weekly thing.
Once again I found myself wearing a 'go the blues' top at work today but I was smart and had a singlet top on under so I didn't have my work shirt on under. Did I say they are never been washed before!
Steve re-gripped my 2 tennis rackets, because they had not been used in so long, we found it making our hands black last night. eww. I'm glad that problem is solved.
Watching NSW VS QLD funny how every minute the side lines have on the screens FOLLOW NRL (on twitter) hahaha even channel 9 has the olympic rings on their screen getting ready for the games.
-New bras as i needed to go up a cup size
32 days till I leave now. Tomorrow is one month!
You should be getting my letter any day now if not already and I'm sure you're going to think I'm nuts with how much there is in it hahah yeah overboard like I've already said. Just waiting to hear your voice and know what's been going on in army life :) Love you xxxx
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M:
Hey babe. Well today has been a roller coaster of a day. I've had my emotions sprung out all over the place to the point where I didn't know what I was feeling to being able to hardly breath in the cold nights air.
I'll start from the beginning.
+ Babysitting:
I taught Samuel to spell his name finally. All the days added up I have just over 2 weeks left with him YAY. He had be up and running down the street to his kindy with me holding his hand, swear that was my workout for the day :P
+Work:
Sent to the office because I had to wear a 'go the blue's' shirt for state of origin tomorrow. Frank and Howard even had blue wigs on which I will have in my mind forever! Even Suzie wore one for the group 'full-time' photo to send off to head office. Apparently she wants to wear it tomorrow so I'll let you know how that goes. I was in clothing today and I came 3rd with $$$ for the day but I think 2/3 in sales which was like 10 for a rather quiet day. Everyone knows now that I got a letter off you, I think I may have read it over a dozen times already. You should be getting yours soon in a day or two if they don't decide to give it to you. It's so big I had to put 2 stamps on it to get it all the way to Wagga Wagga.
+Home:
I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I even felt like I had to but tonight I got rid of someone on facebook from my past. We said we wouldn't lie to each other but in a way this doesn't exactly matter yet I miss talking to you, telling you even this seems like I have you back. Well here goes; the guy that I first ever loved, the one who I may or may not have told you left me for another girl was the one I sent an inbox to on facebook. I basically wished him a good life and that despite saying we would be friends after it all, his lack of effort made me stop trying to be his. It was pointless, seeing his life on a page, knowing his friends and that but not actually having contact with them, so I got rid of him. It opened up all the old wounds, I could feel my heart beating out of my chest when I un-frended him but to me friendship isn't having so many people on facebook. It's talking and all the people I have on there, I could most likely talk to as if we were just long lost friends and have not talked in ages. Talking about it to my TAFE friend who went through the beginning of that relationship made me see just how I much I love you. Your the best thing to happen to me by far. When I picked up Jess and told her aside from the 'what were you thinking' portion of her speech before I could explain it to her, she understood.
+Tennis:
Jess and I actually went and played an hour of tennis, and guess what I don't actually suck! I'm still an ok player. Then again the pizza we bought with us for dinner also slowed us down, by the 4th piece it made me sick to even put it in my mouth. I got one bite and the rest was in the bin. I consider this part of my weekly exercise that I have not been able to do this week so far. I'm going to have to get my racket grip re-done however, our hands were black after playing. We may have been warm after the game ended but the temperature was cold (clearly not to the point your in) we could see our own breath and my teeth almost started chattering.
+Movies:
Went and picked up Chanel after tennis where the plan was for Matt, Jess, Chanel and I to see 'Women in black' with Daniel Radcliffe from Harry Potter. Everything in that movie could be related to that movie. It was crazy! And rather boring, I wouldn't bother seeing that movie again nor ever get it on dvd personally.
+You:
You deserve a whole part for you babe. There is nothing I want more than to see you before I leave. I hope you get visitors to mass before I set off for Europe. I would be sad if you were allowed and I was half way across the world. Stay Safe you poka loca bang bang crazy boy. Love you trillions and more xxxx
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You being away sort of has an upside for me. Not that I don't miss you and would rather have you here but in terms of me reading and writing.
Until you left I was struggling to finish the same book I had taken away with me to Queensland so long ago. Since that one I have finished 4 others and am well on my way to making it a 5th one - though it's currently 'Treasure Island' and with the book with impossible size 8 font and 34 chapters. I just hope it's not another dorian grey book where I struggle to read it for 8 months.
Also I've written 3 chapters to my book which is totally more of a hobby I've had since I was 8 to pass the time of being an only child. I always write best when I'm alone and don't have things on and you my love were the biggest distraction I've ever had. I don't think I have ever finished a book before well aside from the series I started which was to have 5 books and I got 2 books done of it and then a similar series of books were published with quite a few crossovers so I had to give up on that. Funny of it's one of my top 5 book series to date.
Aside from the above I GOT YOUR LETTER!!!! I plan on sending it tomorrow but all come downs to if I have stamps. You had me laughing from the first sentence and the ps at the end :P
You haven't missed much, though last night Manahan's grandmother passed away with Matt right next to her. He sent me a message right away and I burst into tears, even though he didn't. Everything just felt so much smaller all of a sudden and I really could have done with one of your amazing hugs and kisses. So were going out to Taren Point PUB! tonight to kind of let him do what ever he wants. I'm going to pick him up because I know he will want to drink and he's been shooting guns at trees as well in Adelaide. Apparently were going to visit a shooting range - not that I'm totally not keen to try shooting a gun.
Jordan got his full licence this morning according to facebook
Your mum's been updating everyone about her conversations with you through facebook which is good because last week when I didn't get to speak to you at least I could see on facebook :)
Just think of all the excerise you are getting out of all this, seeing your abs for one thing is a sign. I won't even recognise you by the time you come out (just wish you could grow your hair longer - what is it with army, police that look great with longer hair but have to keep it short!)
I hate you for adding the blood thing in the letter! They would have strap me down to agree to have 14 tubes of blood taken from me! One's hard enough without getting bribed candy.
When you say you get to watch funny video's my mind just jumps straight to itchy and scratchy show, I hope it's at least something entertaining you get to watch.
I wouldn't mind you writing for days, in fact I would more than love it! Then again looking at your letter and ALL the one's you are/have now read I think I've gone a little overboard. Please tell me if I have...ill cut it down drastically.
To those who decide they wanted to take the risk and read this HI THERE! How are you? I'm good thank you. Stay Safe and hope you aren't getting cold at night - no one likes that :)
I love you babe. Can't wait to see you again, thinking about you every day and every time I look down to see your name around my neck. Love you to the moon and back
xxxx
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M:
I got your message babe. I had set my alarm to go off at 9 incase you called and I slept through it but so tired I turned it off and I even went to bed at 12. I woke up at 10:30 though and decided to wait a bit longer to message you, since you don't have a track record for your phone being on silent and being IN church - I didn't want to risk it.
I woke up with a really sore right arm this morning, It's my shoulder. A sore muscle or something, must have slept strange on it. I wish you were here to help, as soon as it starts hurting I stop trying to fix it. It hurts and I don't want it to.
On a plus, it's sunday, I don't have to work for the first time in ages and I have ice-scream in the freezer left over from last night. My parents get home today from their trip in the caravan. So aside from the fact that I have nothing left planned for the day please excuse this short letter as i think I'm going to go and have some of that ice-cream that calls my name.
I love you babe, it's ok that I didn't get a phone call. I'll await for your next call or even that a letter :)
xxxx
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So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.