I was going to type something about a certain someone here. somewhere 200 words in i realised these are really words i should be saying to him not about him.
My mind can't keep still. It's changing all the time one thought to another, never being able to make it's own mind up. I never realised how confused i am part of the time. I guess in a way i still am. Do i confront him (something so not me) or do i just wait it out and see what happens down the road 'float' on by - he'd understand what that meant.
I'm not exactly typing this in a good state of mind. The normal feelings normally associated with him are happy and god knows what else but right now - it's a whole puzzle. A puzzle where i'm missing half of the pieces because my side is done!
I close my eyes, gripped tightly together and clear my mind trying to come up with a feeling, an emotion that can describe the state i'm in but you know what even my own mind has rejected me because i think and feel nothing. I'm balancing in the middle and hearing nothing! Either one way or the other that's what i have going for me - options. One of my favourite all time poems goes to say
"we have to decide on which road to take,
what path to make and what's down that road.
This journey that we must make has many obstacles,
many detours, many signs. We see the signs, but never
heed its warnings, we see the detours in life, but seem
to stray the other way."
something I know i have options to take but i have to find a way to go, a road to take so to speak.
Gilmore Girls is cheering me up right now so i'm off to watch that bye.
Labels: Life, LOVE
So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.
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