I've thought long and hard about it. The decision i know that breaks my heart but can i continue to think of something that might never happen?
I'll admit these feelings are unlike anything I've felt another reason i know it's best to back out now because I'm already getting my feelings hurt. They say it's better to have loved and lost - yet if you never fell in love with someone who might never be there for you then you aren't exactly losing them either?
IDK.
Three days might be alright with you but with me it's exactly what the girls and I were saying this weekend away - we lose interest. I know i've yet to lose interest but if i keep going at this rate it's going to hurt a lot more down the track if i don't address the question now.
I don't want to have the conversation of where we stand over the phone, by text messages I want to do it in person but how can i do that when I can't contact him or get a response from him in the first place!
Which is why I know things can't go on this way - this fairytale of perfection and pure happiness can only last so long it's always that way.
Love scares me, only three people know just how much Frankie, Felicity and Jess but him - creeping beneath the radar and sure it scares me but it's a different kind of scared one that is more afraid he's going to hurt me. I'm willing to take that risk though with him as scary and frightening I am feeling this I WILL NOT BE THE ONE TO GETS HURT!
To have your heart broken is something I have not experienced -yet.
I just need to know if he's playing mind games with me - if it's just two friends hooking up or if there is the potential of something more.
It breaks my heart (really it does) having to walk away but i'm not there for him, i'm there for me or us or what ever the fuck you call it.
I need to figure this out and soon i leave for London in less than six weeks and I have not spoken to him in three days (since he will not respond to my messages) If i don't know where we are standing by then i'm assuming were over because hey that's a long time not sorting it out
Labels: Holiday, Life, LOVE, Travel
So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.