At night my mind likes to play horrible games with me. It's like a change over from day shift where I can see everything in one perspective but when night comes and worse when I'm alone it likes to tease me and tell me horrible things.
It's been like this for a while, how long exactly I don't know. At night's I can sometimes find myself crying for no reason. I could just be laying down no matter where I am, and tears creep down the side of my face with no reason or feeling as to why.
I risk a lot more at night time as well, I'm more of risk taker with no thoughts of the outcome after. Not till morning.
My mind speaks terrible things to me, tells me things I know are and can't be true. Wants me to do things that will give me a thrill, get my heart racing, get the blood pumping to match the heat that seems to be coming off me.
Maybe that's why I've always felt drawn to two things; Fire and Heights. I love the heat of the fire the beauty I can see shape within in it. The height and the wind blowing against me, willing to throw me off the edge.
What can I say? I have a dark side or just a very delusional perspective.
I'm sure I can't be the only person to feel this? 7 billion people out there right.
Labels: Life
So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.
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