I love you, I don't know how long it's going to take till I can say I don't. But I can't do this. I think about you all the time and last night was the worst. I couldn't stop crying, I wanted to talk to you so bad. I wanted to message you but you don't have a phone. The world is black and white again and I can't change that. I don't just want to talk to you I NEED to at this point. Because I'm going to break my own heart and hurt you with what I have to say and I don't want to. But I'm out of options. You started this, this was never my decision to make, you made it like this and it can't be fixed with words that you have to say.
I need to get it out face to face because I cry every single time the words form in my head, in my throat and my mouth.
Why didn't you just talk to me? Why didn't you just tell me all of this when we were together?
I'm not a mind reader I can't expect to know, you hid as well you never showed me something was wrong. I love you, you idiot! I want to talk but you're making it like you don't want to. Please just come online and read what I have to say. I can't keep the silence like this for much longer. This silence you have created between us is killing me!
I need to say this to you now, not in a weeks time like now before I loose my nerve.
There is only a few things I have to say to you. It won't take long just come online so we can organise a time to meet up.
If anything us breaking up has made me realise just how much I miss you, how much I love you and it's killing me thinking of you with her. I wish i could be the one to make you happy, it kills me that I can't.
Why didn't you just TALK TO ME?
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So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.
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