Naked.Numb

Welcome to my blog, Naked.Famous. I'm Roisin 1 1/2 of MarkRouge Vintage and this is my personal day to day blog

20th March
Morning
I can see the sky lighten, the night is becoming day and I sit on the porch watching it all happen. The rain clouds still hover waiting to come down. It’s far to early for me to be awake my body screams for sleep as normally I’d be dead to the world. 6:30 seems far to early for me to be here. For any human being to be awake. I don’t know how people do it. I’m not a morning person

Belonging
It sits a mere meter from me, just chilling over the couch. My best friend’s boyfriend’s top which at this point if I didn’t tell him over facebook I have I could have easily kept to myself. Bit big for me but it would be good for winter :P

Shadow
I am cold and all alone. A shadow of what’s yet to come. The winds don’t faze me or the down pour of the rain belting against me as I try to cower beneath a very light umbrella. The days are cold now, as winter approaches. Where is the sun I once loved, where have the clear skies gone? I am cold and all alone now.

21st March
Past
You will always be the boy I’ll drop everything for if you need me, but I’ll never be the girl that will come back to you are the last person that deserves a second chance.

23rd March
Day of my Birthday
I don’t know what to think anymore. Who I should listen to. What I should do. There’s all mixed emotions and thoughts running through my head soo very quickly it’s making my life seem all a blur. All my thoughts starting with ‘If’ and ending with ‘but’. It’s all too confusing. How should I act? Should I approach it natural and at ease or should I be cold and blank? My first and only advice I took for myself was to act with hatred, be cold and heartless, then I’d run away not trying not to look back at who I could have hurt. What have I done? Why? Why did I do all those things? Did people deserve it? Was I being selfish or was I only doing that because I didn’t know how to react and defend? Questions and Questions, all unanswered. I wish I could just… Get answers, then runaway forgetting about all my problems…

31st March
Control
There is something about the way people hold a level of control over ~~you~~ us. So many ways as a lover, a friend or even a stranger. It’s in their words that built you up onto a pedestal that you trust them. We listen to them, go to them and soon enough depend on them. They eventually control us

6th April
Busy Bee
April. Quite possibly the busiest month for me so far and today is one of those days when I have nothing planned. I honestly look forward to these days where I can sleep in and just do nothing but tumblr, watch tv, read, write and listen to music. I’ve kept some days open because I know they are going to be filled soon enough. January was amazing, february was a nightmare, march was kind and april is like one big party that’s only just began. It’s hopeful

7th April
Lost friend
Sometimes I wonder why I even wonder why you are my friend. I’ve already had the worst month of my life so far this year and you were no where. You offered me no advise in help while everyone else gathered around me in support. It really opened my eyes up to how blind and tolerant I’ve been around you. I can’t do this anymore it’s not good for my health. Your problems when you have them are not greater than everyone else’s. You’re slipping from me and I don’t see why I’m the one that needs to pick up the pieces now on.

8th April
Books

~~Dorian Gray~~
~~The Hunger games~~
~~City of Fallen angels~~
The Hunger games: Catching fire
I am number four
Picnic at hanging rock

Books I have read as of 2011.

I’m 1/4 through catching fire and in that order I plan on reading the next two books. I’ll see what I’ll be reading when that list is done. This way if any books to series I have already read come out I can finish the book I’m on and read that

10th April

One day, One moment, one feeling

I was broken and you gave me hope, I was ready to give up and you both held my hands. My tears were soon yours and you never left me both of you never left my side.

I realised I had never been grateful for a better group of friends, nor had I believed I deserved them. Somewhere along the way you both came into my life for the better. One of you I have known for 16 years a brother, a twin to me despite the fact we are not in the slightest related. Another will be my roommate one day where we have been best friends for 7 years.

Someone put forth the question of a day you remember clearly, without fault and I remember that one because while my heart broke only moments before…you two were there with glue putting it back together.

Labels: Life

Posted on: Tuesday, April 12, 2011 3:35 PM by Roisin â†’ 0 comments / ++

So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.

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