There's something about getting out the city and home to go up and see Shion in Newcastle, a calm wave. There's always that sense I'm leaving all the baggage and that in the city and the further away I am the more I can relax.
The cool morning is brisk against my chest and I hug myself to keep the heat in as I stand at the station. I hope that the coming train will provide me with heating to warm up.
The cold clings to me, follows me onto the train like snow flakes in European winters. The heating conflicts with the cold sending a shiver running through me before the heat takes over after that protecting me from the cold outside.
The first part of my trip was occupied by my reading of Yen, my bible among with 'shop till you drop' when it comes to magazines. The new layout and design just amazes me not to mention the content which only saw me skip 2 articles with no interest to what it was about. Ever so briefly I'd cast my gaze to the passing images that flash before me as the train passes them all by. Of rivers and lakes, of towns and bridges of the evergreen. It was looking out at everything that my true emotions were blank on a canvas ready to be shaped.
It was early so it was just peaking up through the mountain ranges as we passed by. Reaching up for life, happiness and energy as the sun never looked so bright. The sea began to glimmer and sparkle as the sunlight touched it, spreading out to all the water that can be seen with one's eyes. It looks almost is if one could walk on it and not sink.
The girl next to me sketches unicorns as I write, but truthfully they look like cartoons horses than anything to what she tells her friend she's trying to draw. I've gathered she's a design student.
It's funny how the song you are listening to can play havoc on your thoughts and opinions. The words that are spoken in them keep bringing up conversations where I could have said something different to someone once upon a time, though it no longer matters. Feelings change, love fades, mine has. I'm flinging myself into this with no thoughts or with hesitant. Right now this is making me happy, you are making me happy and I don't care to think about the later though ideally I should. All that drama and the negative issues of things and people in my life disappeared the moment you seem to have. I've separated myself from it because for the first time in five years I don't have any to speak of.
It seems that festival time calls as kids bombard my once quiet train trip with their asses showing through their very low shorts, nor trying to match it with mid drift tops either. One girl really didn't have the body to pull it off, though I doubt anyone would tell her otherwise.
The police do a walk through the isle which I think will soon call me to dig out my train fair ticket to show them proof I have paid for my trip. Out of sight out of mind, they stop briefly and then gone without question.
The pen I write with fails on me again as I fear it won't last the trip there or possibly for what I have to say when I return. I hope it does not take the ink away from it completely.
The voices of the kids grow louder as their identical clothing shows festival about to be in full swing. They cling together like monkey's or something. Though I would love to have all their outfits in my size though. I would wear them to Hot Damn or Purple Sneakers even FAKE nightclub if I ever get the change to get there.
There is nothing peaceful enough about any trip when you have all the screaming kids going off all around you. They are even trying to get drunk considering the fact they don't look old enough to be 18 anyway. So here's me turning up my headphones to drown out their annoying voices.
I don't regret anything. It bought me happiness, it's hasn't done anything than make me happy. Laying in your bed watching movies with you and admiring just how many there really were. It's like the dictionary of movies on your computer. Everything was fine, we were warm till Shion called saying she had finished work. Then everything went wrong. Not only was it freezing outside we heard a noise on the way, pulled over to see where or what it was when a car stopped very suddenly on an angle if that as a girl ran out and was sick on the side of the road. Nick and I laughed our heads off and continued on forgetting the sound entirely before we knew we had to check it out. 5 minutes later it was clear we had a flat tire, I having had the same thing happen with Adam and I could not believe that this was happening again of all things. So slowly we drove back to his to change cars but even with the emergency lights on when cars approached us they were too dumb to realise they should overtake us.
We must have breathed in some of the smoke coming out of the tire when we got back to Nick's and changed cars because a coughing, crying and sneezing fit occurred between us till we actually went to sleep.
Finally changing cars we were pretty sure nothing else could go wrong, we were more than sure about that when the petrol light came on. Once again laughter rang out as we could not believe our luck but thankfully we had enough petrol to get Shion (now an hour later) from work and back to her place.
We didn't last long watching movies before we were all asleep. I just remember waking up with Nick moving around a lot, then moving so we were face to face and then we just hooked up...I honestly don't know for how long but snuggling (him being the big spoon) kissing the back of my neck as well fell asleep like that.
Yeah so much for friends ay, It doesn't matter what happens between us really, just a moment like that was enough to make me realise I had moved on, I was happy and I was glad I had some part of Nick.
Happy Mothers Day Mum <3
Labels: Life
So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.