I feel like I'm stuck between them. There are so many words, so many things I want to say but how can I when it will only seem like I'm picking one over the other.
He will never come first to me over her though, despite losing my virginity to him the fact remains friendship is stronger than love, affection desire.
I just feel like I'm stuck between knowing what's right and the desire to want more of what I shouldn't. I can't help but be weak to my desire's and I know part of my recovery is to accept I will always have to deal with this. I just don't want to deal with it which is the problem.
I just don't know what's expected of me, from me. I just wish I had someone that cared enough that was in the damn country to help me right now because I just feel like I'm choosing between being happy in the moment over one of my best friends and yet not being able to decide.
Labels: Life
So I guess with all things you want to know a little about me then? Sorry to dissapoint you but that's going to have to come later. Right now I'm a little busy to talk about my life but hey look around, read a bit, you might learn something about me you didn't know before.
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